The Door in the Woods
The cancer did not so much kill Frieda鈥檚 mother as engulf her like rising water. Within a week of her death, Frieda鈥檚 father had locked himself in the cabin at the edge of Frieda鈥檚 property. He had the clothes on his back and the few amenities already in the cabin: a tuberculosis cure cot with raising back, a quilt, a door skin on cinder blocks for a desk. A chair, a functional woodstove, and a spring-fed spigot outside.
John Prade was seventy-eight. Despite the Prades鈥 fractious marriage, their neighbors in Pittsburgh stood ready with casseroles and good cheer after the funeral. He fended off all generosities and phoned Frieda to come gather her mother鈥檚 things. She drove down from her house on retired farmland in the Adirondacks.
鈥淚 want to get the hell out of here,鈥 he said when she arrived.
The house had convulsed into unprecedented clutter, as though a huge hand had shaken everything off its shelves and out of drawers.
鈥淐ome live with me.鈥 Frieda had not planned to say it. 鈥淢y house is big enough.鈥
鈥淗ell, no. I鈥檝e seen it. Odd little box of a place. Too much land. Too cold up there. Here there鈥檚 a furnished apartment across town.鈥
鈥淟et鈥檚 pack you up today,鈥 Frieda said. Where had she acquired such calm? Neither parent had had any to spare. 鈥淚鈥檒l hire someone to clean this up and ship us the good stuff. Ralph and Cathy can help.鈥
There would be a fight, of course. Days of cajoling, colluding with her brother, Ralph, on strategy. John Prade had the furious visage of a demonic Chinese mask. 鈥淵ou always got your way, didn鈥檛 you?鈥
Frieda suddenly thought of her mother, pinched and dying, but strong enough in the last eight days of her life to banish her husband from her sickroom, pointing the way out with a waxy finger. At the time, Frieda imagined this act a kindness, though, in retrospect, there was nothing kind about her mother鈥檚 fevered eyes.
鈥淲ell, I got a blue dress one time,鈥 she said. 鈥淚 remember promising everything for it.鈥 . . .
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